MARIEMMA RAMOS
EL UNIVERSAL
"Airplanes. We all complain about the same thing. Five days
here, five days there. It is a routine, part of a life plan
that I still intend to follow. Becoming an actor was a very
serious and carefully thought out decision. It was not something
that just happened, but neither was it something that I had
planned since childhood. As a child, perhaps like most other
actors, I wanted to be something different every day. About
seven years ago, I made up my mind to spend my time telling
stories, and that is what I still want to do, more so than
ever. With the same expectations and fears as at the beginning.
In the long run, your obsessions, your neuroses and your fears
are always with you. Their size changes, just as we do. You
do not win until you outgrow them and harmonize them.
"Cynicism terrifies me; I feel it is nothing but detachment
and loneliness. I never cease to be surprised by everything
that happens to me, by every trip I take. I have not burned
out. I may be exhausted, but only physically and mechanically.
My mind, however, continues to feel very stimulated, and my
heart very moved by all the opportunities and things I encounter
in life. I feel extremely privileged to be leading the life
I do, with the wonderful people I have met and keep on meeting,
on screen and off.
The 2008 Oscar ceremony was a major turning point in my career.
I had already been involved in a project that was nominated.
The Oscar, the box office, the ratings, I am always very cautious
about everything having to do with the fruits of my work because
they cause unnecessary anxiety; this career is one that already
builds up a fairly heavy burden of anxiety, without piling
even more on top. When you are making a movie or doing a job
you cannot spend your time thinking about prizes, because
that is beyond your control. It is only once it happens, when
recognition comes, that I am overcome by emotion. Not even
when I was working on Bourne, or Vantage Point, or even Cyrano
did I imagine the things that are happening now, because you
cannot imagine it. It is not healthy. Setting myself the goal
of winning an Oscar would be like carrying an 8-story building
around on my back. A nightmare. I try to do the best I can,
I hope for the best, and I allow myself to be surprised.
"I hope I never lose the capacity to be surprised. To be
moved by the things that happen to me. When you are working,
you have to concentrate on the here and now, just like a monk.
"Today I can say that I find success moving. Above all when
I come back to my own country; even though elsewhere in the
world there are journalists and people who are surprised at
what I have accomplished in such a short time, it is never
the same. There are people who need a whole lifetime. It has
taken me six years to become one of the Latin American actors
who have had the greatest opportunities in movies, and I am
aware of that, and value it every day. And yes, I am very
moved because it was a risky bet, where I held nothing back.
For me being an actor is like being in free fall. I jumped
without any plan B, and I am moved by how far it has taken
me.
"I am working on making a career in movies, despite coming
from a country where, it has been said, movies could not be
made. Working in a market where, it has been said, there is
no room for Latin actors, in roles and movies not made for
us; and that, naturally, still fills me with a great deal
of hope."
Translated by Francine Jacome
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